The Funk

"Dude... if you ever need to talk, man.. just give me a call..."

"Hey... how are you doing today? Still want to kill yourself?"

"You've changed a bit..."

"Snap out of it."

"You'll get there, J, I believe in you..."

"I don't know what J I'm coming home to..."

"Hey, noticed you haven't been all too chipper... everything alright?"

"What's your problem?"

"Why don't you come out with us, you'll feel better."

"I'm sorry your life sucks right now..."

"I've been avoiding you like the plague! You're bringin me down!"

I Think the secrets out. Life ain't been no crystal stair the past couple weeks. The past month or so, actually. So, for all of you reading this, for all of you that made comments to me... most of which are listed above... Thank you. Even with the tough love, you care. I appreciate it. I wouldn't trade any of you for anything else. Turns out, I really do have friends. Some are closer than others, I guess.

So for all of you that read this, for all of you that care... things are getting better for me. J will be back to his normal self soon enough. Some people think I'm not the same unless I'm smoking, or drinking... possibly - haven't figured out if quitting has changed me for the worse or for the better yet. That'll get better, also. Sometimes, going through a low point will help me too appreciate the better high points a little more. Write that down.

The main purpose of this post is to announce another mix. This one is different. This one wasn't mixed live, this one was mixed on a computer. There's no beat matching or tricks... it's just 14 songs smashed together. There's no genres, it's random, it's now and then, it's all over the map. That's why I love it. It's basic. It'll make you feel. It speaks to you. That's why I love it.

I have picked a small collection of songs that you can't just listen to, you will FEEL. Some are new, fun songs that you jam to, some make you smile, some make you ponder, some make you horny. Fused together with poetry, movie clips, and famous moments in history... you'll get my mix: Subliminal Emotion.

This doesn't show off talents, this doesn't prove that I'm a great DJ... it's just great music for about an hour. I mixed it cause I don't think music should ever stop. I mixed it cause I wanted to create something... create something because that's what I love to do, create.

And by doing this I've commemorated an end of a low point in my life. Told ya, music is my inspiration. I figured out something... I like creating shit. I especially like producing and creating things people can see and enjoy. This mix, the latest visual update to my website, I loved doing them. I spent hours on them and saw them come together. I wasn't satisfied until they were just the way I wanted them. I did them myself. I loved it.

So my life has become just one step closer to being clear. I need to create. I need to produce. I want to look back and say, "that was mine... I did that."

Wow. It seems so fuckin' easy now...

Funny how yesterday it seemed impossible.

Wonder what tomorrow will bring then?

The mix will soon be uploaded to my website, as well as two other demos that I will add, a demo from the Sunday Hang, and a clip from a musical I was in. I have to get permission for though, first. So there we go.

Another step completed.