Inspiration

It's a damn shame people aren't as inspired as they should be.

All my life, I've wanted to inspire someone, to light a fire under their ass and get them going. I've tried... in so many different ways. I've tried from the comforting advice to the tough love. Maybe I just don't have what it takes to be inspirational... maybe I don't have what it takes to get people to listen...

It's not like I feel I'm always right or I'm perfect... I'm not, in fact I'm far from it. Furthermore, sometimes I could use a little kick in the ass myself! For some reason, however, I still see many of my friends sitting, waiting, wishing... wishing for their lives to fall in their laps.

Not gonna happen people.

We need to be inspired to always do more, to reach that next level and never be satisfied. I say "we" because I include myself.

Such as today, I got some self-inspiration... downloading I'd say about 30 something songs all related to this week's Sunday Hang - which we are dedicating to songs that make you wanna make love... or just fuck... however you may like it. Music has always been my lead point of inspiration. Now I'm not saying that this week I'm going to get up and be on a mission to get laid... no, it goes deeper than that - time for a little self evaluation.

I downloaded a mix of ambient tunes, and that mixed with some tasty JBlue coffee some inspiration came my way. The coffee always gets my mind working. I talk a lot about change on this blog, and about making a better me... but I've never really done it. There's been a whole lot of "this time..." and "next time..." and so on, but never any "I have..."

That's a problem. That's sitting, waiting, wishing, just like anyone else. Then it hit me, how am I supposed to be inspirational to anyone if I haven't done it myself? Lance Armstrong, inspirational. Malcom X and Martin Luther King Jr., could move mountains. Bill Gates even, if his trillions don't inspire you then maybe him being a complete nerd and having a supermodel suck his dick will. All I'm saying, is if I want to inspire someone I actually have to DO something.

I'm nowhere right now. I've been in nowhere for quite some time... shit just read through the archives of this blog and you'll see all the sitting, waiting, wishing first hand. Am I complaining? No. I just need a little say what I do, and do what I say action.

I'm getting there.

Inspiration is hard to find these days... money, girls, fame... none of that stuff is inspiration anymore to me. Sure that'd all be a nice bonus, but what about happiness? Success?

Well I'm already happy...

I'm not just happy... I'm comfortable. There's problem #2.

Here's a shot in the dark... what about taking a couple risks? Not like jumping out of a plane or trying sushi for the first time... no. We're talking life-changing risks... we're talking stuff that could make or break you. We're talking jumping out of that plane by moving to an unkown location, or trying that sushi by finally asking that girl out.

Maybe we could make some waves in this world if we just winged it for a second. Improvise.

You think Columbus REALLY knew what the fuck was out there when he set sail?

Maybe some faith would help then too. Not believe in a God faith. Believe in eachother kind of faith. Faith that we can really do this... that its up to us and that we have faith in eachother that we'll all get the job done. It's up to us, you know...

This generation of ours is looked upon with such low expectations. We've become lazy, dependent, filling ourselves with thoughts of riches from reality TV. But wait a tick... so was every single other generation at my age.

We're just getting started. You have to give us a chance to work our way to the top. We'll get it eventually. We're all about the money and power now because of the media and the superstars. While many of them didn't have to work to get there... MOST of them did. They worked hard from age 4 when they could barely talk in full sentences... grooming themselves for success. It was their parents that pushed them, because they knew better by that point. Their parents knew that it would take some pushing to get to the place where they aren't.

But we all got lazy. We all gathered this notion that it'll just come to us... the inspiration... the success... the fame and glory. So here we are, just sitting, waiting, wishing.

And here I sit. JBlue another night... broke... overweight... alone. Looking for that inspiration to get up, get out, wake up early and go for a run, make that money, get that car, follow that dream of fame and glory. I've tried a thousand ways. None of them work.

The greatest stars of the past got their inspiration from other stars before them. Let's find the heroes again, not the Paris Hiltons or Ashlee Simpsons... the Lance Armstrongs and the Bill Gates. Even the Tupacs and the 50 Cents out there. People that worked their ass off starting with nothing or at a low point and made their fame and glory for themselves. Even the Michael Jacksons or Kelly Clarksons... while Mike may be a little off color he has his own zoo called Neverland... end of story.

Life changing risks. Go to college, even if you don't get a degree get an education. This generation is about doing what you love and love what you do. There are millions of us, all able to choose one thing and go for it. Find your inspiration.

No more sitting, waiting, wishing.

This isn't gonna be another post that contains the words "this time..." THIS TIME there is no this time. This time has passed me by. It has passed me by 1,000 times.

I say let's find that inspiration. If its a fancy car you want... find out what it'll take to get it. Put a picture of it on your wall. List some goals. No more of this "one day..."

TODAY.

My inspiration? Music. I'm the guy you haven't heard yet. I'm the guy inspired by the other guys already there. I'm the guy inspired by one of my closest friends that just landed a residency at a club that hasn't even been built yet. I'm the guy inspired by my would-be-girlfriend that finished college and immediately got a job that makes more money than me. I'm the guy inspired by every wedding that I've done... to better myself to one day have that as well. I'm the guy that looks through pages of DJ and music production hardware and software dreaming of the day I start actually using it. I'm the guy that listens to other's music and want what they have. I'm the guy that wants to be loved. I want to be inspired, too.

The website, the mixes, the photos, the radio show... it all means nothing. That's not inspiration... seeing my name in lights is inspiration. Inspiration is driving down the road of any given city and seeing a sticker with my name on someone's car. Inspiration is telling this story, and instead of sitting, waiting, wishing like I've done... actually going out there and breaking myself off.

This week I will go running. For the first time in about two years. I will get up early, strap on my shoes and get out the door. I will run until I can't run anymore. I hate running... but it's a first step in a collection of life changing risks and actions that I must take. This weekend I'm enrolling for two classes: Web design and Studio production. Then I'll grow from there. One day I'll make a girl fall in love with me. One day I'll write a song that makes it on the top 40. But today...

Today I find my inspiration.