And Then There Were 5
I talked yesterday a little bit about friendships. To be specific, I focused a lot on "Best Friends," which is really different for everybody... So I'm going to talk a little more about it today. This won't be as long as yesterday - but I'm not making any promises on how short it will be!
Serena and I had a little talk last night. I didn't want to talk to her - because I knew it would amount in a fight... which it did. She was holding all my DJ equipment; my turntables, my computer and my speakers, which was very nice of her to do. I am moving now though so I had to get it out of there. I just wanted to go in there, get my stuff, and leave. I wasn't in the mood for any fighting.
But she persisted on making me talk, thinking we could work out our friendship and maybe come to a conclusion. Well, we didn't.
Here's my take on the relationship between Serena and myself: We are not best friends. To her, much like I explained yesterday, she only has *one* best friend. One person that she holds closer than anyone. That is fine, but it's not me. Now if I was someone who felt the same way about friendships then maybe, because then I may be able to be there for her everyday of my life. But I can't be there for her every day. She deserves somebody who can. That's not me. Simple as that.
So, we'll stay friends I hope, we have stuff in common, but I just can't be expected to be there all the time. I don't think I did the wrong thing here. Anyway, I just wanted to let you all know that you can't force a friendship, if it doesn't work then you'll have to quit it. That's what we did last night.
Serena if you read this, understand that I don't want to hurt you, but I meant everything I said. I said that I think your life sucks only because I think you deserve better, and maybe you just need a little confidence in what you do to be truley happy. But like you said, I don't know what makes you happy anymore so maybe I'm just all wrong. Either way, I'll see you at the parties.
That's all... not bad, huh? Do you all want my entries to be this short all the time?
Stay Cool.
1 comment:
I just want you to know that I still consider you to be my best friend, Justin. You're the greatest friend I've ever had. And part of the reason for that is because you're not afraid to tell me that my life sucks and that I need to get off my ass and do something about it.
If you really don't want me around anymore, well, I don't know what to say to that other than it breaks my heart. And if you're really going to just give up on me, fine. But that makes you look like you've done nothing but lie to me about how you'll always be around.
You're right, you don't know what makes me happy anymore, because you don't listen. And I don't know what makes you happy anymore because I don't listen. Having you around makes me happy and I've always told you that. I don't know what else to say.
Except please don't give up on me.
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