May Flowers Blooming

All I can say is Holy Shit this has been a month. Ready for a gripping story? Read on...

Let's start off with DJing, since that's the premise of the blog. It's going great. I'm one day away from being a certified DJ for SKM Entertainment, and I'm very proud to have gotten this far. Last Saturday I did my first non-wedding event, a bat mithsva... that was for simple terms - meyhem. A bunch of 13 year olds just going nuts. Not dancing really just going crazy and screaming everytime I play a new song. My MC just let me have the board, not even interjecting that much on song selection... I had a TON of fun. I was a little tired afterward, but I needed a beer and some good music so... luckily my girl Lysa D hooked me up with entrance to Flux at Sky Lounge in downtown Phoenix. A quick interjection - I would just like to say that no, I'm not gay - however yes, Flux at Sky Lounge on Saturday nights is normally gay night. But since I'm an adult and very comfortable with my own sexuality, (just a tip, you bring a girl there you're normally pretty locked in since there's no other guys to compete with...) I have no problem enjoying the great music they spin. Anyway, DJing altogether has been a blast, I still can't believe I get paid for this shit, but I do and I guess that's the perk. Notice all those plugs in there? Make sure you hit my friends up, especially if you're in the Phoenix area... They're not sponsoring me or paying me in any way, I just like these things.

Going further, DJing is branching into two worlds. I have the mobile DJ world, which is great... and I know I could probably go far with it. But I don't think that's me. There's something about the club that just scratches an itch for me. Even more, I just dream of one day filling up a stadium or a park or something with thousands of people all just dancing to my music. I want to produce, I know that much - as well as perform. I think being a DJ is more than just standing up there and spinning records or CD's. Now it's become a performance. Not every DJ can scratch - and I think that's OK - I think scratching is a form of performance that DJs use to attract themselves to the listener. I mean think about it, what is scratching anyway? It's a trick that is done with records, to create sounds and effects that are cool sounding. When a DJ is scratching, it looks cool, too. Hence the reason, it's putting on a show. Non-scratchers can do that too. You see that I put club DJs in two categories there, ones that scratch, and ones that don't. Because really it's black or white there... some DJ's are put into a third category, though... DJs that shouldn't scratch. :)

Anyway, so it's about performance, getting up there and pumping up the crowd, always moving, dancing, just into it so much that it's infectious. That's what I wanna do. And that would be really cool.

So what else is there? I told you this was a holy shit month. Let's talk about my personal life for a moment...

I have a hypothetical question... why do people love drama in their lives? Why do people create drama? I mean are some people just born for drama? Allow me to explain.
There's this girl - you know her as Satan. I called her this because I honestly thought she could have been the Devil incarnate and that was just it. My life sucked when I was with her. I was broke, my friends were gone and according to her they were talking shit behind my back... then I found out that wasn't true. Complete manipulation. I didn't explain to you before that this girl and I were in a very complicated, and regretful relationship, that brewed things into proportion I didn't think it would. Bill, or "battle" as you know him, dated her for a while, I'd say two or three months, and he was just utterly in love with her. Serena (Satan), loved too, but soon after it broke off and everyone's heart was broken. At least Bill's was. Here's the turn of events. A DJ in Phoenix EXCLUSIVE! After they broke up, Serena and I started seeing eachother. At first, it was sex. And sex was all it was going to be. We were adults that were attracted to eachother, both single - everythings cool right? No, apparently Serena and I weren't allowed to choose who we could be with, Bill set her as "off limits." Now I see where the real problem lied. Off limits? What the hell, she was single Bill! Get over it! It's not for you to decide who I can and cannot date, especially screw. But because I respect Bill, and I didn't want to hurt him any further than apparently Serena did, well we decided to keep the relationship a complete secret. I did all I could to distract from the fact that I was seeing her. I felt bad, too for Serena because I would flirt with other girls and such to try and hide the truth. I lied and I regret that. But hear me out... what was I supposed to do huh? Bill owns a gun, with bullets... and occasionally he makes me a little nervous with all his talking. Not that I think that the guy would kill me but I didn't want to even be involved with that shit. So even after all this ended and all this hate for Serena occurred I still kept the secret locked away.

You know the story. Serena and I ended up real close for a while, then we started fighting for little things and that's just when it wasn't worth it anymore. We tried going back to the purely sexual relationship again, but she kept getting attached. I backed off but she persisted. Because I thought that she was trying to manipulate me, well I had to shut her out completely. I did it rather harshly, I will admit. I was a little tipsy and so frustrated and annoyed I just went off...

Now I'm a pretty nieve person, I'll admit it. I don't know whether she was trying to manipulate me or not back then. But maybe it's just because I'm a nice guy and people like to use that to their advantage. I think that's bullshit just so you know, but I am one to give second, third, tenth chances when I believe someone screws up - let me remind you that I'm not perfect either - because I do believe people can change at least a little. I've changed a lot. I don't take no shit anywhere. You don't want me around, you're talking shit - goodbye, you don't deserve my time. I'll be nice as hell to you and bust your balls and play around, but the moment you cross my path the worong way, your out.

Which is a good segue to the most recent part of this saga. I've been quite the ass-hole. I know it. I think I deserve to be every now and then... I've done a lot for my friends, excluding Serena, and I've worked my ass off to have everyone happy... Even Bill. Just recently we all came together and started this website, idontknowadamnthing.com - a great idea - We all shared the idea, which I will give them credit for... But nothing would have happened if it wasn't for me. I went out and bought the domains, signed up for the forum, created the graphics and got it all set up. Done. They did nothing. In hinesight they tell me now that they would have jumped in with it but I'm not sure if that's the truth... all I know is then they did something really shitty that puts them right on the 'fuck you list.' First Caitlin (you know her as Kate) decided to go on to the site and change every single forum name to whatever she felt like. It became trashed and it was so stupid. She said she warned me but I don't remember any warnings. Additionally to that, a warning before what? What did she want me to do? She sends me a PM and then four hours later everything is changed? That's a whole lot of discussion time, isn't it? I was PISSED. Little did I know, that also - Bill decided to let everyone that was a member an administrator to the forum, in his "drunken rage" he says - well his alcohol problem is going to get him in trouble one day. Overnight one of our newly acquired admin people went in and destroyed the entire website. I was livid. That was it. They have all the fuckin nerve in the world to pull some shit like that and I went off. Bill and Caitlin, fuck you for that.

As for Serena, she was right. We started talking again and she wanted to let me know that she never meant to make me think that she was manipulating me, just simply protecting me from the people I was associated with. I still have trouble believing it, I'll be honest at least, but now I know she was telling the truth. We're back to being... friends, at least. Nothing serious is going to happen there. I'm looking for someone new, not a been there/done that. No offense Serena...

As for the Site - well, check it out! It's pretty fuckin empty right now I'll tell you that!! But soon it will get back to normal. Thanks to GoDaddy.com, we got some webserver space and we're in a new location. I hope to see you there.

Gripping, huh? Check out IDKADT.com, DJJ Phoenix Official website, Energy Arizona's Dance Radio, and my girl DJ Lysa D. See you next time!